I can hear Peace around the corner…
singing our favorite song…
He’s a Giant living reminder…
This is not our home for very long…yeah…
You can take my heart and all I dreamed of…
You can take the future that I saw…
I would trade my Peace for another…
This is what I wanted after all…
Beautiful…
I think this sounds like a beautiful song in the making!!!!
Bree
CJ…a beautiful song about a beautiful boy…mom
So powerful, and again, through your most real, from the heart and life; words that lift our eyes to Christ!
Praying for you both so much CJ and Renee, that God’s awesome supply of mercy and hope will be your mighty, nmighty strength!!
How we wish to be ‘physically’ present with you these past couple weeks and even still TODAY! The hardest part about being friends is not being physically present with you during the hard times. HOWEVER, we know it wouldn’t be US that helps heal your heart anyways…but that it would be through JESUS!! So we trust being here in CA that He is using us “spiritually” to intercede for you AND on your behalf! We can only imagine the moment by moment thoughts, feelings and emotions you must be experiencing as each day goes by! In saying that, it baffles me that you have words to express it all so clearly on your blog! As I have sat and prayed so earnestly for words to share with you…I, myself, find encouragement and strength from YOU! What kind of sense does that make…ME receiving from YOU only what I’d hope to offer you! From your words I have found comfort in hearing God at work in your hearts. I’ve found peace hearing that God is drawing you even closer to Himself, and I’ve been overjoyed at the GIGANTIC faith you both have in Jesus even when it’s not pretty! You my friends are REAL! You my friends are what “the church” needs to hear! Don’t ever feel like you should or shouldn’t feel a certain way…because that is all part of your journey! You are entitled to run, walk or crawl your way to Jesus! Some days are better than others and that is okay! Remember, you are not drawing closer to God without Him drawing you first! That being said, HE is in tune to YOU! He DESIRES YOU! He is smiling on you as He walks you through this! Continue the road God has prepared for you because your story has lead me (and I know many others)into spiritual conversations that would have never taken place if it hadn’t been for God’s divine purpose and “MESSY” plan! CJ and Renee, you are a gift from God and have been GIVEN a gift- to be used in a way that will touch lives for ETERNITY! Though this journey may feel “too painful” at times, I pray you are quickly reminded that God KNOWS what HE is doing! He CHOSE YOU! HE BELIEVES IN YOU! HE KNOWS YOU CAN DO THIS…because you so gracefully ARE! What an authentic faith we all see in you both! We love you and only hope to be so faithful!
Amy Kelley
Jer. 29:13 “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart”
Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
CJ & Renee,
There are few words I can say at a time like this. I am so sorry for your loss and have been praying for you everyday.
I know we don’t know each other but I have been blessed beyond measure by your story, songs and faith through your trial since I first found this site a few days ago.
Cling tightly to Jesus, there is hope found in him. He is enough.
A quote from Stepping Heavenward by Elizabeth Prentiss
“Oct. 4.- My darling boy would have been six years old to-day. Ernest still keeps me shut up, but he rather urges my seeing a friend now and then. People say very strange things in the way of consolation. I begin to think that a tender clasp of the hand is about all one can give to the afflicted. One says I must not grieve, because my child is better off in heaven. Yes, he is better off; I know it, I feel it; but I miss him none the less. Others say he might have grown up to be a bad man and broken my heart. Perhaps he might, but I cannot make myself believe that likely. One lady asked me if this affliction was not a rebuke of my idolatry of my darling; and another, if I had not been in a cold, worldly state, needing this severe blow on that account.
But I find no consolation or support in the remarks. My comfort is in my perfect faith in the goodness and love of my Father, my certainty that He had a reason in thus afflicting me that I should admire and adore if I knew what it was. And in the midst of my sorrow I have had and do have a delight in Him hitherto unknown, so that sometimes this room in which I am a prisoner seems like the very gate of heaven.”
I wrote the song below for my babies I lost, I pray it may comfort you but even more than that I pray Jesus arms around you both.
http://kvalentina.wordpress.com/2009/03/28/under-the-tree/
Keisha